Life Without My Scale

It has been about 5 months since I gave up my bathroom scale.  At the time I thought I would never make it without my scale.  After all, I religiously weighed myself every. single. day.  I found comfort in the number on the scale and a sense of euphoria watching it go down.  On the flip-side I was also devastated when the number would go up.

This was the game I played every. single. day.  I was in a literal battle with my bathroom scale.  It was a love/hate relationship, really.  I loved my scale.  I also hated it.  Somehow, that number started to represent more than my relationship with gravity.  It started to represent ME.  If the number went down, I somehow had more worth as an individual.  If it went up, my worth went down.  I did not realize how much power I had given that scale until I got rid of it.

For months I thought I would relish the day I got my scale back.  This week was the week I got my scale back!  I was so excited!....at first.  The euphoria quickly wore off.  Though I was excited to be able to measure my progress with a number, the idea of starting the bathroom scale battle again was less than appealing.

Getting rid of my scale was extremely difficult for me.  (Just ask those closest to me!)  I missed my scale.  However, it has been one of the best things I have done.  I do not need a scale to tell me my worth.  My worth is not tied to a scale or anything else.  My worth is intrinsic.  I do not wake up in the morning with anxiety, wondering if that number will go down.

I do not have to fight a battle with a bathroom scale every. single. day.

There is an incredible sense of freedom in that.  I do not need a scale to tell me anything but my relationship with gravity.  I do not need a number to tell me if I am progressing.  My progress is measured by how I feel, not by a number....and I feel better than I have in a long time!  Getting rid of my scale has helped me experience a whole new type of freedom and allowed me to really focus on how my body is feeling. I eat better because it makes me feel good, not because it will make that number go down.  I exercise because it makes my body strong, not because it will affect that number.  Life without my scale - is great!